Well, the last few weeks has been a roller coaster of events. Aug 26th I had a positive pregnancy test! We were so excited and was even more excited to keep it a secret between us until 12 weeks or so...just to enjoy the excitement of it all. Sept 3rd I had some spotting and because of my past (2 miscarriages before Tyler was born) I went in to give blood to check my HCG levels. I went back on Friday and the numbers decreased meaning that sadly I was having a miscarriage. The next few days were tough. The strange things started when I never started bleeding anymore so I called the Dr's office and made an appointment to see what was going on. The whole time I was praying that my body would do it's thing and naturally miscarry. The ultrasound didn't show anything good or bad but we decided to give blood again and then would follow up a month later to make sure everything returned to normal non-pregnant levels. The next day the Dr. called and said my levels increased, meaning that my body was still supporting a pregnancy. We scheduled another ultrasound for the next week (tomorrow). Saturday night while Scott and I were watching a movie I started having really bad cramping and it never let up and bleeding started again at 4am. I called the on call Dr and explained to him everything and he gave me warning signs for an ectopic pregnancy. I waited it out until yesterday at 2pm and decided that the pain I was feeling was unlike my previous miscarriages and I wanted to make sure everything was OK.
It turns out it was an ectopic pregnancy in my Right Fallopian Tube. Last night I had surgery and all is well. The surgery was a success and I even got to see pictures of my insides. They saved my tube and the Left tube is free and clear. The Right tube should heal and we can start trying again in 3 months. My chance increases for another ectopic (from 2% to 15%) so everything in the future will be closely monitored. I am doing OK, I was able to vent all my "pity me" thoughts yesterday and thankfully my sister-in-law Amy was there to set me straight. I still have a good outlook on our future family. I told the Dr. 100 times that I want more children and to take care of my stuff!! It's been a hard couple weeks, but Tyler has kept me busy and smiling and reminding me how blessed I am to have him. I also have a wonderful loving husband, amazing family, and awesome support from our church and small group...and most of all I know that God is always with me and he is always good!
God only gives you what you can handle and the best part is, I can feel my faith just getting stronger and stronger. I love you Jesus...thank you for everything! I know you are taking care of my 3 precious babies in heaven and I will see them someday!
A friend of mine sent me this verse: Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.